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Today is a day I hoped to never have...................today I had to explain to my baby that unfortunately there are people out there who will not like you solely based on the color of your skin. It's nothing that you said, nothing that you did, it doesn't mean that you're not good enough or that they're better than you. It's just some people out there who are filled with hate and ignorance.

For those of us who are black, there is always that one defining moment, that if you never knew you were black, now you know. My 7 year olds just happened to take place at Disneyland, The Happiest Place on Earth. Thanksgiving 20201 and this was my son's 1st trip to Disney. As we were standing in line waiting to get on the Dumbo ride, he and another little boy were playing...until the dad pulls his son away, yells at him and makes him stand behind his mom. I immediately realized why but didn't want to give any attention to it, so I called myself distracting Jordan. I assumed he had no idea what was going on and hoped that maybe he thought the little boy was in "trouble" because of somthing the little boy did and I so blissfully thought that until tonight...........

As we were watching House Hunters International, I jokingly mentioned that we should move to Stockholm,  Sweden too......only to be told by my 7 year old...."Why?" They won't play with me because I'm brown and they're white. They'll say it in their language, they think I won't know but I will"

I'm absolutely speechless and just sick to my stomach! Based on our previous conversations, he know's that that there is a difference in skin tones but never has he ever thought or mentioned that it was a reason to dislike someone or that it would keep him from playing with anyone.

When I ask him where he got his from and why he feels this way he recounts the incident at Disney and tells me that the little boy couldn't play with him because he was brown and the little boy wasn't.


I'm all over the place about this and I can't even remember exactly what I said, I just pray that for him it was the right thing. I know that since he's gone to bed the tears have fallen fast, freely and will not stop. In my head I keep alternating between d*** and f***. I thought we were in 2011! We just celebrated Martin Luther King Day not even 3 days ago....I keep thinking of things that I should have and could have said....I want to go wake him up and have another heart to heart....I want to make sure that he understands just because there are idiots out there who think they're better...I don't care what they think or what they say...they are no better than you! You are a beautiful, brilliant, loving and talented boy who has so much to offer....your skin tone doesn't matter, your heart does, your thoughts, your actions....that's what matters! That's what defines you as a person, not your skin tone.....